Doggiedo, I love your avatar. Cute everyone posting so far is dogs. Relationships have a way of weighing on us whether we know it or not. Sounds like you have empathy for your bf and it is carrying over onto the way you are caring for yourself. You need to pray for him and let it go... place it in God's hands. Stop worrying about him and work on yourself. You owe it to yourself to take pride in who you are. Your beauty can be the enhancement he needs after a stressful day at work. Or just fixing the apt up into a nice little haven for the two of you after a long day at work. It is the little things we do that can alleviate the pressures we bring home with us. And tell yourself that you are a wonderful unique person and love yourself for being you. Things will get better, just believe it first. tc