(((hugs))))
What you will learn through experiencing T's vacations and being away, is that T does return. That's opposite than what you may have experienced growing up. T's return, and continue to give support and caring for us, without us having to prove our worth or anything. This leave, return, leave, return, though very trying at times, helps us to realize things aren't always like you knew growing up, and helps to create a new way of thinking about it all.

It's still tough, though, isn't it?