I dont think i can, unless i stay in bed all day because everything is overwhelming... And even staying in bed all day would be horrible in the end so i dont think i have a way out. Alcohol is the only one thing helping me now. I dont want to go back to SH right now too scared to do that again. Already taking pills. Already in therapy. Already asking for help at AA, in forums like this, friendly chats, hotlines etc. Nothing helped. What remains???