Most mornings seem to be hard for me now. I've managed to have an ok day overall the past few days, so I'm trying to remind myself of that, but right now I can't stop crying and shaking. I miss my grandfather and I wish I were at my parents' house so they could take care of me, but I know how ridiculous that is because I'm 27 and need to be independent. I have my support group tonight, so need to pull it together before then, but I don't really feel like going because I have to take two busses to get there and it's going to be cold. I would hate to end today without having done anything though. I just hate feeling awful like this.