Explain this feeling, please. This is my least favorite season! I have a family, a wife and a beautiful daughter, a pretty safe life but I have no friends of my own. Not close ones. I have some (very few) scattered around the Globe but often I just want to chat a little (and I do not mean online but face-to-face) and I have nobody to talk to. Internet is my substitute (Skype) but even there, nobody ever calls me, I should reach out and I am usually just in the dark. These feelings are usually surfacing when I am in my elevated mood and subside when I am down. (then I don't want to talk). The problem is that I like to talk to interesting people not just anybody. When I am down, I can be dismissive and aloof. We have a circle of "friends" with my wife but that is not what I am looking for.
I am 59 (on Saturday) and I have no close relationship (a friend). People are just too busy or schedules do not match, or our interest are different. I think my problem is my mood disorder but there is nothing I can do other than start meds (lithium). Even that is uncertain because making friends at my age is hard.