You weren't naive to think that he was a good enough person not to be a criminal/rapist. Everyone walks around all day thinking the best of others around them. That's righteous. You aren't naive.

You know what was naive? That he thought there would be no recourse. That he thought he could take what he wanted and never face the music. That was downright moronic.

I hope you find the courage to face him and all the bureaucratic bs that you may have to go through to hold him responsible. It's important to help you heal, to be in your own corner and take the power back. It's important because your legal action can save other women from being victimized by this guy. Your actions may make the world a safer place.

You didn't do anything wrong, whether you flirted or didn't say no 20 times or struggle enough -- there is no grey area when it comes to consent. Consent is straightforward. Just because you give a man access to you doesn't mean you've given him consent. You were a female who found herself alone with a male who didn't respect your boundaries and forced himself upon you. There's nothing you could've done wrong there.

You are much stronger than you think you are.