I see..I also have borderline personality disorder- so I understand your issue with life and meds as well. Sometimes because of our personalities..no amount of medicine can take away the symptoms of the borderline. However that being said, you are on quite a cocktail of different things..maybe you should talk about simplifying the regime..I know for my borderline an atypical antips..has helped..first abilify and now Geoden..I also take Prozac and that helps a ton with any depression or anxiety..sometimes the dose has to be alterated to see what fits you. Klonopin helps with occasional anxiety
It also may have to have talk therapy or psychotherapy...with us borderlines we need to really let out all that steam..insecurity, rage impulsiveness..all needs to come out somewhere but in a way that's healthy. also..meds don't work as well when we aren't getting the nutrients we need with them. Like your daily vitamins and minerals like zinc , even potassium vitamin D fish oil that stuff h elps a lot with your meds