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Originally Posted by Kittycat2015
School was really traumatic for me. I went to a lot of different schools because of moving and bullying, and it was really hard starting schools not knowing anyone. One of the times I moved when I was 14, i didn't know anyone and it was so scary starting a new school, I had social anxiety so was too shy to interact with anyone (and I'd been bullied at previous schools which made me confidence even worse). I didn't make any friends in the 2 years I spent at that school, and I would get panic attacks at school. It was horrible being on my own all the time, until it got to the point where I refused to go back to school and I started SH'ing. A lot of the people at that school were really horrible to me. When I would join people at lunch they would talk about me and say they hated me tagging along with them, they would leave me out and ask me why I was following them. They would whisper about me while I was there and laugh about me. It got to the point where I had to spend lunchtimes either walking around school on my own or sitting in a toilet cubicle. I now left school over 5 years ago, but it still upsets me, so I messaged a couple of the people on Facebook. I just thought I needed to let them know what they put me through and I was hoping they would have grown up and apologised. But no, this girl replied saying how ridiculous I was and need to move on, and called me an "ugly idiot". It seems unfair how I'm still suffering but she's getting on with her life, not even showing any remorse.
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I am a Professor of Art who was molested and raped as child (from age 3-10) by a male physician. It is the first, real memory that I have...what he was doing to me in his office. I have suffered from PTSD attacks my whole life.
I have always struggled to fit in with normal socializing. People innocently trigger me, and I end up trying to fight anxiety attacks for the next 2 days.
While I have control in my classroom over my students--perhaps it's one of the reasons why I chose the profession--because I never felt in control as a student. I was picked on and bullied.
I'm 44 now. I am on a year sabbatical from college, and am over in Israel during my year off--getting a Master's Degree in Holocaust Education. Only a handful of students in my graduating class ever went on to pursue or do anything after they got their Bachelor's degree. I'm the only student in that graduating class who became a professor, and is now getting my 4th degree/ post grad.
These people who picked on you?
YOUR BEST REVENGE...is YOUR SUCCESS.
They all need a hobby..and picking on you or me?..ISN'T IT!
While they are still learning how to grow up in the adult world--
you keep pounding away at the road of success.
The next time you see them?...You ask them how their bullying antics
and humdrum lifestyle is currently working out for them.
I believe in Karma.
Heads up.