Hi Broken Forever. Yes it does show us something about ourselves. It shows me that life is overwhelming for you and you wish it was you and not them cause you can't take it anymore. Do you know secretly how many people have felt that way? You are not alone in this. Many people truthfully in their darkest corners feel things that are not pleasant or nice. It is just part of the human experience. Write you feelings down on paper, why you feel this way. And then if you can talk them over with a therapist if you have one or a good spiritual director. You will find you are not that horrible of a person for feeling a certain way. You are honest and honesty is a good thing to be with yourself. tc