The thought of that a lot of people are celebrating with family and friends. Seeing all those stupid shows on tv, all about new years eve and all showing what a great time people are having with eachother.
My brother having fun with his friends, while I have nothing.
It all reminds me of how lonely I am and that I don't really have good friends. How bad my and lonely my life has been for the past 10 years. How I struggle with anxiety and depression.
What a horrible year it has been. And that the next year will also be horrible.
Especially feeling so lonely, being so lonely, is what hurts me. I know I'm not the only one who feels like this. But when you have a asshole brother who has friends and everything...It's just unfair how everything has come to this. And that even with the help of therapy I can't really get out of it.