This morning my boyfriend and I broke up and I feel shattered. It was a joint decision but the reasons behind our break up are mental illness related. He has bad anxiety and I have PTSD and Bipolar. I make him anxious and he makes me withdraw. It is very complicated. I hate this illness of mind right now. To top it off I have been going through a mild mixed state for a couple of weeks so I am not that stable to start with. And it is Christmas soon. Bad time for a break up.