The kids in school had it right, I was dumb enough to think I could change things. I bought into the fact it was just high school, but no matter how much people tell me I'm cool, or I'm a decent guy, or attractive, at the end of the day none of these people want anything to do with me. It's not something that's just in my head.

I'm basically a piece of ****, no one will ever like me, I'm always going to be alone. I just went over my social history and realize I'm so pathetic all my 'friends' or people I have confided in I have had to pay. Psychiatrist/psychologists, coaches, only way I can get people around me is by paying them. Most of them even want nothign to do with me.