Hello sophiesmom: I'm afraid what I have to add here will not be of any help. But, for me, when I no longer wanted help, that was the beginning of my "recovery", such as it is. It's not great & I still struggle. But now I know & accept that there is no help out there for me & I really don't care. That said, I work to simply accept the person I am & the struggles I have... with compassion...