Wow I think all I can say is that I hope you put yourself FIRST in all this.

Another thought is 'whoever really knows what is good or bad' by which I mean ok I understand this is the very worst thing in the world for you but what if it's actually the very best thing in the world for you, where you have the opportunity to move on and find something that isn't going to weigh your soul and heart and mind down for the rest of your life.

Another thought is if he has created one child, what if it doesn't end there?! What if there are more in the future.

What if you could go on and meet someone new and this is just blocking you!?

You need time out and away from it all and no contact with either of them. This is about you and you alone right now, so you can work out what kind of life you really deserve.

Best wishes for now.