Thank you so, so much for giving me insight. It makes more sense, even if the guilt is trying to contiguously outweigh everything else. Even with this insight, though, I fear it is something I'll have to work through every time it comes up, which, unfortunately, is quite often. How would it go in therapy...I hope well, if I'm willing to open myself up.

I wish you all the best with counseling. Let me know how it goes?