without thoughts of subconscious meaning and strange creatures and dreams and underlying thoughts and meanings and strange things that all tie in and such.

did you go psychotic by any chance? it's just what you wrote above made me think this?

and often in psychosis everything we see and hear we attach a meaning to it, it's so difficult to relax, it's so intense, but within time, it will ease off and you'll be able to just listen to music and do things and get enjoyment out of it without attaching meaning to it.