Pinksoil,

I don't know if you will hate me for it but I'm going to tell you something that I think might help.

A few years ago I was at the stage you are at. At times I hated my T. Called him all sorts of awful names too! I realised that T would purposely provoke a reaction in order for me to see.............that actually I wasn't mad at my T, but at the people who had hurt me.

Eventually you will realise that your anger is justified but not about your T at all. T really cares about you, I've seen it in many of your posts. T wants the best for you.

Go easy on yourself and 'allow' T to help you.