Thanks all for your responses and good wishes.

I did not sleep well yesterday, and I feel as though I was abused.

Lemon, no I did not get the chance to tell him how I felt about what he was saying. That's what the phone message was partly about.

Sky, yes, I agree that T's leaving and return is important to to work with, that's why I showed up yesterday. I think of it more as an opoprtunity to re-experience rather than change thinking but the end result is the same.

Echoes, the T-voodoo doll is the best idea yet. My project for the day!

Moonkin, although I am somewhat confused about our relationship, the confusion that happened yesterday was a form of dissociation that I go to when i don't feel safe. Thanks for the hugs.

Almeda, no I didn't get to read the letter. I was nervous about his asking me to anyway, but I would have, I think.

Nikki, thanks but it's just makes me sad right now to think of the positive.

I'd rather be angry at him.

Pink, If he doesn't call today I will have reached a new low in my depression. Plus he was wearing sandals yesterday. I'm going over to respond to your thread now.

Dang I'll have to put on my Wonder Woman suit and attack him when he least expects it.

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MyBestKids, this is really telling it like it is! I love it!

Maybe I should have told him my Weight Watchers goal.