Pretty much daily I deal with suicidal thoughts and desires. Basically, even though I have many nice things in my life - I see no point in it and wished I were in heaven. However, I have a very impressionable 16yo daughter who loves me very much and killing myself would "really mess her up".

There that is my background.

Yesterday I was talking to my therapist and mentioned about how I would like to die but I did not want to "mess up" my daughter. She pauses and says "did you ever think that by staying in a constant depressed mode - that I already am messing her up".

Now I know she meant her comment in a way to kick me out of my depression. But I could not help but "hear" it as reason to end my life.

The mentally ill mind is a weird, funny, twisted thing.