I don't even know what's wrong with me anymore, I can't control myself no matter what I try to do, I'm out of control. My therapist tells me to try and look at things differently or distract or refocus on something else, but it's no use, the thoughts and excuses and painful feelings come and take me over and I can't handle it. I knew that sealing with mental problems was hard, but I never thought it would be this hard, and it just keeps getting worse and more difficult with each passing day. It never stops, I say that I want to change, but I can't even go 1 day without throwing in the towel and quitting. What then? It's not like anything else will do any good, because that's the best a therapist or doctor can do, and yes I'm on medication, a lot of it, and I've been on 4 others too.