Hello jakers59: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I wish I had some magic solution to offer you. I don't. If there is one thing I'm certain of, it's that there are no magic solutions. The options are all right there, laid out in front of us, for all of us to see... psych med's, therapy, etc. Some things work for one person, not for others. Some individuals find that nothing seems to work for them. Sometimes something that didn't work at one point, will work at some other point, under different circumstances. All one can do is to keep trying until something "clicks". Something will. It's a matter of persevering until you find it.

Personally nothing the mental health system has offered me has been of much value. So I've had to come to the realization that I have to find my own way. It's not always easy. But, in a sense, coming to the realization that I have to heal myself has been the beginning of my recovery. I wish you well...