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Originally Posted by RxQueen875
Did you suffer any trauma growing up?
does having your mother blown out of bed by dynamite when she was seven months pregnent with me ...
does having to use a gun to stop a sexual attack at 12 ...
does being shot at ....
does being emotionally neglected by your family ....
does believing you are the reason your grandparents died ...
just saying......
More importantly, how are you doing now? Are you seeking treatment for your anger issues at least?
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Once I resolved the "religious" issues in my life most of the anger left ... it is tricky ... to the world I am the calmist and most at peace person you will ever meet ... but it is there just under the surface ... that is why I work (and medicate) to keep my stress level down ... my depression is most likely my anger at myself coming to the surface ... it is very likely this has been the root of all my anger issues through out my entire life ... I was the victim of "bad" religion ... that is why I get so upset when I hear others going down those destructive paths .... but it is always a lesson one must learn for themselves ... if they survive ...
the memories are still flooding in ... today triggered by 70-80's music, ... tunes of my youth .... felt 17 again .. and not in a good way ...
those days of doubts and fears feel new and alive again ... it is not that I am remembering ... I am reliving it ... and it knaws at the pit of my stomach ... Tigger ...