I had a high school on and off BF too,
It dragged for two years after high school. Total 4 years of nonsense. Similar kind of like your thing. I can relate to codependency I used to have with men.

Don't know if he was exclusive, but I think he most likely saw other girls at the time, he was an idiot. I didn't know any better. He wasn't even any good as he was rather not intelligent kind of dumb lol don't even know what I liked about him.

I then left him at age 20 and then met my future husband and never thought about this high school BF. He however continued pursuing me in a rather unpleasant manner. He once called years later professing undying love for me, later I found out his wife was pregnant at the time. What an ***. He once showed up when my husband wasn't home with flowers. I told him to leave.

Fast forward to last year he got my email from some other high school friend and started sending me emails saying he regrets we didn't end up together and he cant forget me. Then he started talking how now when I am divorced we should keep in touch WTF

Dude we are 50 and we both have grown children, grow freaking up. I now live in a different country across the ocean and haven't had s single thought about him for 30 years , move on already. I blocked him.

Don't waste your time on this guy

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