Hi Bonkeroo, welcome to PC. Don't feel bad about your sexuality. Times are changing. Now i understand a bit of what you are going through. I was born both sexes and my mother decided to make me a girl rather than a boy. I was raised as a girl, yet i have always been a tomboy and thought like a man. I was transgendered at birth because that is what they did way back then in the day. Now I have the opportunity to be my own person. The world is very hateful and prejudice against things they do not understand or know. Be true to yourself. I basically am going through a divorce for my spouse flipped out with PTSD. They are not coming back. Myself, I am more or less and A SEXUAL. That is a person who is not attracted to either sex yet desires the company of others. That is something you might want to check out. Don't measure yourself by the norms of society for they shall fail you. Do what feels comfortable for you. Life is miserable when you live life for other people trying to please them and rob yourself of joy. I don't want to see you fall into that trap. Be happy and know you are not alone. Check out the forum index and you will find gender issues there. You can express yourself there in more detail. Welcome and blessings... tc