I just sent a text message to all my friends apologizing for everything. Its the only thing I can think of to "fix" this. The problem is I have messed up so bad I don't think it will ever be "fixed". I feel my only friend is the alcohol I drink. If they accept my apology or not, I just want them to reply SOMETHING. It could be ANYTHING, I just want a reply. I feel so horrible for what I have done. I feel like Trash.