Thank you Blue,
It is nice to hear from you. When starting out you can use Meetup to get to know people or a support group for free. I have tried both. They are worth it! As to clarify my reason to be "blue" is this;Basically, I have no relatives living either from my mother or father's side. This effects me around Christmas time more than the usual. I never had a siblings and my mother's family broke away because of my parents' neurotic and erratic behavior during my youth in Hungary. Eventually,I've left my family too, when I was 21. The Parents died and the cousins I have were much older than me, thus they are either dead or one leg in the grave...I have one cousin who was a published author and I have tried to contact to no avail.
I have a mood disorder that is not a full blown bipolar, I also have anxiety issues etc I am going to my pdoc on the 15th.
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Originally Posted by continuosly blue
Basically sounds you do have some type of mood disorder or are what they used to call 'touchy". You have a family but you still don't sound like your happy with just that. I'll take it. I just got divorced after a very long marriage,
and have two estranged older children. So I lost my whole family.
Also sounds like at least you know some people. I have yet to make real life friends as I am starting all over in a new place. Seems like you talk when your in the mood. You have ups and downs. Your like me also in the fact that I just don't talk to "anybody" just to talk.
Your wife's friends don't appeal to you. I think we have similar conditions in that we are hard to be friends WITH. When I get depressed I don't want to talk to anyone , ( except my therapist if I happen to have one at the time ).
You mention Lithium. Have you ben diagnosed by anyone ? Maybe you can use some medication for your mood.
BTW: I wasn't trying to compare your life with mine. I'm just saying what you have and I have lost. I don't really know who's better off.
Starting over at 60 was not something I had planned.
Good luck to you
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