It's been months since I've posted. My husband's uncle committed suicide in June on our sidewalk. My husband found him. We were separated at the time.

My thing is now, my husband has developed PTSD from finding his uncle. They were raised up like brothers. They were each others only friend. And H seen him in the most grisly, gory, tragic way. Not only that, his aunt committed suicide last June and 5 weeks later we found his grandmother (who adopted him at 3 days old) dead from a massive heart attack. Then his only uncle he had left died suddenly from an aneurysm just 6 weeks after he found his uncle on the sidewalk.

Now, he's being awful. I understand PTSD makes you say and do things that you normally wouldn't or that you don't mean, but he was like this before. He just blames on his mental state now. The whole reason we separated because of his abusive ways. But now, he does the same thing except now it's his mental state doing it. He threatens suicide all day. He accuses me of trying to make him do it. He threatens my physically. He calls me a *****, the C word and a *****. Tells me he hates me. Tells me to "pack my ***** and get the ***** out" then won't let me leave. He asks for advice from me because he knows I have PTSD and have dealt with it but as soon as I start giving him advice, he starts yelling and throwing my past mistakes up in my face. I told my friend yesterday that I was probably going to divorce him and got called selfish and a terrible person. I don't know what else to do. Even at this very moment he's picking a fight with me. He has been yelling at me since he woke up an hour ago. It's triggering my own PTSD and panic attacks. I can't afford my meds because he let our insurance lapse while we were separated. So I've been out of meds for a month now. My stress is so high, I'm dissociating.

I'm at the end of my rope. I have nothing else to give him. He refuses to go to the hospital. He refuses any help. But he complains he doesn't have anyone to turn to.

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