No she's advancing to me before, not thinking anything of it before. Then tries to get me to respond, and then is all doing that she's got a bf. Then continues to come up to me to bother me, like she is intentionally coming up to me and saying, "my bf .... doesn't want me to talk to you, but I'm going to talk to you anyways because I want to make him mad at me."

It gets weirder when her bf is claiming to be her cousin, and that I should ask her out. I do so, and then this happens again. I am confused why he is so concerned with this, he told me she's super shy, but I don't have an ounce of patience of this game.

I'm stuck with them at work until thankfully hopefully 2 more weeks, before the other store opens and they can get out of my area. I hope at least.

This is making me mad, because it's not just her it's the "bf" getting involved in this too. I didn't provoke this earlier or nothing, she came up to me and it's so bizarre and confusing I don't know what's going on.

I'm angry they are trying to make me look stupid both of them.

I don't know if she's available or not, it doesn't matter. I'm not talking to her, because she has shown her true self to me and it's not what I like. I don't want to be her friend or anything. I was really upset someone tries to pull my leg like that.

No I only asked her out 2 times, ever recently friday after hearing what her bf said to me, and like once before. I didn't think anything of it after the first time and I wanted to be left alone and just let people let me be, but it's like she's trying to get me to open up to her to be like hopefully I'm afraid she would do this to say,

"oh he's hitting on me come beat him up."

and the "bf" is conspiring this too.

Like I don't know what to believe, like this is so unusual the bf is a manager. I don't care what he does to me, I just want them both to leave me alone. I just don't like how I was pushed into this situation. He came up to me like she did, expecting me to drop what I'm doing.

They like to play games like this.

I don't know if she is shy or not, it would make sense if she is and his story is true, but it's not going to happen. I've dated abusive people who pretended to be bottled up all the time and blame me for everything. I hated that so much.

I'm not doing it again. They treated me like I was stupid when I ignore people and just trying to go through my day I can't get that satisfaction.

I literally one day want to bash my face into the wall to stop all the noises.

Like I don't like relationships ever. I truly hate them, she can't force herself on me and expect it. I was having a naive short handed experience of it could be something better, but I run on hope not reality.

Reality is, most girls treat me like crap. Most friends of mine just aren't ever available. I buy my time either alone or smoking. If I had more money to spend leisurely I would buy weed to buy all my time. I like the escape and the fact I can't outrun this.

It's like it's always following me.

People just only want to hurt me that's it.

I'm not over reacting, I'm telling you my state my mind is all the time with everyone period.

I have severe psychosis and was severely abused all my life in every way. I hate explaining myself soo thoroughly just to be understood.

I hate having to exhaust myself for being told no a lot. I don't give out my number I don't talk to people I don't bother anymore, because when I did it didn't make any difference, because even if I made myself available no one is available. Everyone is always too busy.

This loneliness has killed any motivation I had in life and all I want to do is be left alone to die alone and just get away from everyone. I don't want to die with everyone else I don't want to go your heaven or hell. I want to get away from everyone.

I always felt that alienated and it's not changed no matter how hard. I've changed myself.

I go to work just stare off blank out everything, go home stare off blank out all the pain I feel, I go hang out dissociate everyone out of my own experience. I shut myself from the world that isn't going to let me open up. I never have a chance to feel entitled or get a chance to actually feel I did something right.

I hate when girls come up to me to tell me in comparison how I am talking about someone else how awesome they are like I should care.

I hate eating I hate my self and everything I've done no matter how well I would do in life I would just hate myself.

All people here can do as much as everyone else can do. It's empty it's barren and I've rather just tell people to leave me alone and stop hurting me, but no.

I want to make a choice to just stop being around people. Literally run away to the middle of nowhere either die from being out in the wilderness alone with no home than this.

I hate existing with no existence. I'm working to nothing, I've been poor in finances and my own spirits. I was always the kid overlooked, even if something bad happened to me and others felt bad, they wouldn't say anything to my face nothing. I would get nothing, I get always so angry so jealous of so many people who get something in life. I just want to had killed myself because people don't get how this is.

I didn't choose this. And people here and everywhere are a brick wall. I just hearing voices louder and louder when I don't get understood and I just explode because I can't get the anger. I hit myself repeatedly I smack and beat myself because it's all I do feel about myself how others have projected themselves onto me I treat myself that way, because it's all I know.

I don't have to like it, but I deal with it.

When I'm high I don't think about love, I don't think about death or the lonely life I have with flakey people everywhere.

I don't feel excluded in my own mind I feel included for once. I don't want to be in reality, I'd rather be dead than deal with this anymore.