I can relate. My T also gets "fed up".

I don't know if this is right, but it seems to me that if you haven't experienced enough love and compassion you tend to harden yourself. I get angry because I feel neglected and abandoned. When people help it never seems to be enough because I don't have any intimate relationships and am always struggling. People start looking like adversaries because I see them as always rejecting and withholding.

Some people visited the house where I am staying alone today. It was two young ladies and their little kids. They weren't really here to see me, but they were very compassionate. It made me feel great, like returning to myself. I realized how bad isolation can be. We are social by nature, meant to have deep and meaningful connections with other people. If those needs aren't being met, we can't help seeking them at every opportunity. When we try to connect and are disappointed or rejected, it's natural to get upset. It's not the particular incident or person that is so upsetting, it's the repetition and continued disappointment. It's like if you were starving and someone wouldn't share their snack.

I imagine therapists deal with this a lot, but I can't help wondering if someone who's needs are being met can really understand what it's like when they aren't. I think self compassion comes from being treated by others with compassion. If people are meeting your needs you feel better about yourself. If they aren't meeting your needs, it's very difficult not to be hard on yourself.