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More than me not existing, i dont know wheter or not my thoughts and feelings are real. They seem real to me but when i tell them to others its almost as if i was telling a lie. So maybe i dont have them for real? I have tried to SHOW them to my good T and talk about them with other Ts but i always get the same doubts.
These intrusive thoughts you mentioned really hit me. Maybe thats what my flashes are? But they dont scare me only, i even feel excited when i have them, a mix of fear and sweet temptation to make them real...
I HAVE started talking about them with professionals but they dont tell me what they are and this bothers me.
I havent noticed any connection between these thoughts and situations and feelings connected to them... It seems they just happen! And i'm not even so displased by them... They keep me company, they show me the way for me...
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