pink, I'm sorry it wasn't a better session for you.

I think it odd that your pdoc can't communicate with you directly but has to go through your T. I would be kind of annoyed about that. When you called pdoc for more klonopin, why didn't he just say, "OK, I'll write you another scrip, but after that I really need to see you again, as it's been a while. Can you make an appointment soon?" Then when he sees you in person, you could discuss the current meds situation, you can explain how you need something without disabling side effects as you must be able to function for your internship, etc. And if he is stumped, he can suggest you talk to the other pdoc for another opinion. I don't think he is suggesting another pdoc because you are difficult, but maybe because your med needs are challenging and beyond his experience.

It could just be me, but I would find it supremely annoying your pdoc can't talk with you directly about this but has to "tattle" on you to your T. It would make me feel like a little kid and the "grown-ups" were colluding behind my back. For gosh sake, pdoc, just talk to pinksoil yourself! Instead, your T had to waste valuable session time with you going over this topic, which did nothing to make the session a productive one. If it were me, I would ask T if next time pdoc asks him to relay a message, to tell him to talk with you directly. You're not a child!

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I wanted to say: I felt so far away and disconnected from you, and you did nothing to make it easier.

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It's so hard sometimes to say what we want. ((((hugs))))