im sorry your feeling this way.

You really need to step back and think about this. Why does this make you so anxious? Is it because you do feel so inexperienced? Take a few deep breaths and realize that not having sex does not define who you are as a person...so why rush it? It sounds like you may feel alittle rushed because your friends are either doing it or have a reason not to do it and you feel insecure because you dont have either...why not just wait till it comes along? You dont have to wait for anyone special...but let it come naturally....if you try to rush it it will be quite obivious to the person you become intimate with...then they might feel uncomfortable...ok so you dont have experience...that doesnt make you a bad person....i think your a great person....and you have alot of potential...if you relax....and dont look for it...it will come naturally and a whole lot faster than you realize.....