I find myself doing this as well. I don't know how many times I've told someone I'm (physically) "sick" to get out of plans because I'm feeling anxious or afraid.

It has definitely affected my relationships with people. Maybe they catch onto the fact I'm lying. But it's not me being malicious! It's because I am not feeling well.

I mean, people are so quick to tell people "stay at home, get better, rest up" when they're physically sick. You would think some would be understanding if you could honestly tell people you just didn't feel like going.

I think some of my friends have caught on to the fact I've done this a few times. I've even lied my way out of working in a toxic job atmosphere. But I'm miserable if I do and miserable if I don't.

(Rant over. I don't know where this is going. But yes smartiesparty this is very relevant to me as well. I don't know how I can explain it but my mind sometimes tells me to do things that other people may consider a letdown).