I've been married for 21 yrs.
I have 3 young children.
I have a house. A car. Hubby doesn't complain about money & I don't work. I have everything a suburban housewife could want!
Then why am I so miserable! My husband had stuck with me thru several suicide attempts, med changes, counseling, self harm & ECT to name a few. All this had effected him & we've slowly drifted apart. We are not the same people we were when we fell in love.
So I stay.
I stay for my children. Out of guilt and bec of obligation. I am also financially dependent on my husband. The thought of leaving terrifies me!
Am I being selfish? After everything he's done for me it would be horrible of me to leave. Right? I don't love him anymore.
I know that if I'd leave many many people will be hurt.
I feel so very trapped. I'd like someone to step in & guide me bec I know I'll fall on my face. It makes me feel like dirt!