Hi Yagr. I'm very sorry to hear things have been so tough--you're right, it IS enough to make any guy depressed.

First of all, I do think you should stay in therapy, particularly if your lawyer has suggested it. It could make a big difference in your application for SSDI.

Normally, I would recommend talking to your T about feeling that you're not being listened to, but I assume, after a year, that you already have done and nothing fruitful has come of it. Am I right about that?

So, if you can't really get on the same page with your care team--the disagreement about your diagnosis seems to show that--and are continuing to go SOLELY on legal advice, then you do whatever you want with the therapy hour. Balance your checkbook. Look at cat videos on your phone. Simply vent about your day-to-day frustrations--if your T tries to re-direct you, simply remind them that this is YOUR time and you will use it however you damn well please.

If, however, you are actively hoping to gain something with the therapy hour, how you proceed sort of depends on what you're looking for. You can, for instance, just agree to disagree about your diagnosis, not talk about your past, and instead focus on everyday goals--eating better, getting more exercise, finding a hobby that fulfills you, things like that. If your T again tries to re-direct you, just point out that it's your hour, your life, your goals, and this is what you've decided to work on.

Hope that helps. Good luck and let us know how it goes.