I've been such a mess in therapy lately because my life is in complete upheaval. The problem is things keep getting worse and so do I and I'm afraid that she will get tired of me and/ or think she isn't helping me and ditch me. I couldn't take that. I can't even fake going in and pretending I'm okay because I'm not.

The other problem I'm having is that with so much piling up, the insurmountable stress is causing a lot of triggers and old stuff to surface, adding to all that's occurring currently. It almost feels pointless at this point to go in for 50 minutes once a week and try to work through all this muck. It's like I feel worse when I leave because I've opened up a wound again or something. I don't know - it just sucks to have so much crap and to not be able to do anything about it but cry all day. How do you pick what to work on with T and what will help the most? Often I'm just quiet because it just seems so overwhelming.