Please don't feel ashamed. It took an awful lot of courage to do what you did. Chances are, like so many people, your mother has come to believe what so many hateful, ignorant people have preached: that anyone who is gay is a pedophile. How awful! I bet your mother is not a hateful person. She is more likely confused. Afraid. In her own way, she is afraid for you. This comes for years, decades of hate spewed by people who claim to be good Christians. What bunk! I know of a guy, a big shot in the church business. Maybe you've heard of him. Pope Francis. Remember what he said? "Who am I to judge?" No, its not right for your mom to judge you. But be compassionate towards her. Don't judge her either. It may not always feel this way, but I'm sure she loves you. She may not ever change her mind. May not even change her mind that just as many gay people as straight would condemn anyone who would molest a child. Truth is, I bet an even higher percentage of gay folks would feel this way. Maybe all these haters should explain why they feel gays are all pedophiles, but see nothing wrong with teaching girls at an early age to always be subservient to males - setting alot them up for dangerous relationships. Phooey on them. I do hope your mom comes to learn the truth and to accept and love you for who you are. Believe it not, I've seen it happen. Alot. Best wishes. Know there are others who share your pain. And your hopes!