My ...I dont know where to begin. I've had so many bad times in therapy, 4 therapists,..now I found the right one...but am I just lying? God the envy, the love,...I'm so afraid. I feel attrated to my T...its so horrible! I'm so bad.....so scared, ...so far away from being better. I need something,..I WANT TO BREAKFREE...I have a appointment with my T tomorrow.....what will go on....will i be let down again? Or will i let myself down.