Moogieotter, since I can remember all I ever wanted was to be a good wife and mother and give my children what I didn't have as a child, parents that loved me and my siblings by my side, a steady home that was safe and loving I started doing meth at 15. I was in a relationship with an older boy who kept me supplied. at 17 I got pregnant and I got an abortion, the worst choice I ever made! The guilt and sadness stayed with me and at 20 I was pregnant again and stil going hard on the meth. But a week before I found out I felt something was not right with my body. I can still remember saying no to that last line. When I found out I was pregnant it was easy. The abortion really opened my eyes to the miracle of this little gift the good lord was offering me. I stopped using, drinking and smoking all cold turkey. I knew I had to keep my baby safe and healthy and I wasn't going to fail again. I now am a stay at home mom with 4 children 14,11, my boys are from my first relationship that was very abusive mentally physically and sexually. Though I really tried to stay it just wasn't safe or healthy. My husband is their true father and gives them all the love their biological father cannot. 3,11months. Beautiful girls! My husband of 7 years is my rock and heart. And now that I am finally diagnosed and on the right meds life is just getting better!