I am so sorry to hear about what's happened, estrella. I would like to wish you all the best in this situation.

I think the thing I am most saddened about is the lack of regard from the mental health system! I mean, hell, physical ailments have emergency rooms, Immediate Care facilities and (depending on the service) staff who will bend over backwards to attend to patients at the drop of a hat...why this is not 1:1 with mental health in this country is absolutely awful. I am extremely sorry the crisis line treated you so rudely. Pardon the dramatics, but...how could they?!

I hope you will be able to see a doctor very soon. I don't want to sound naive (since I can't speak from experience as someone who only recently decided to seek help), but three months is far too long. Until then, seek out every local/community resource you can, even if it's as innocuous as a support group.

I know my words may not mean much in the grand scheme of things seeing as though I'm new and slightly idealistic, but I am hoping things turn around in a positive way very soon. You deserve better.