General idea is that it will not disappear with marriage regarding to your answers. I am seeing a therapist and she tries to figure out my situation. but neither she have an idea about after marriage feelings of TGs. I talked to her and her assistant very much about this subject but yet we haven't cleared the situation. I told her assistant that marriage will be just a test for me, not a 'normal' life or happiness expectation. Regarding Pfrog's answer, yes I believe deep in heart this is my true self that can never disappear like my eye color. All I hope is that maybe it will become less painful if I can feel a bit male because of being the father of a family. But as I read your answers this doesn't meant to be happen. Hugs to all