My youngest child is only 5. Kindergarten.
Thru my marriage we've tried marriage counseling on 3 different occasions & it's never really helped.
Last time I talked to my husband & told him that I don't belong here, that I needed to leave he asked me to stay & figure it out here. He keeps blinders on. See he has it very well if I stay. I do everything for house & family while he dedicates himself to his job. It comes first. It always has.
He gets upset when I tell him how unhappy I am. He thinks he has to fix it some way & can't. He says he's not responsible for my happiness. That he just wants the old me back. He doesn't understand me & is tired of me & my MH issues. I don't blame him. He's frustrated.
I know he'd want the kids full time. He's a great dad. I'm not a very good mom.

Yes I'm still having an affair but know it's a dead end relationship. No one knows about it.

I don't see a therapist or shrink anymore. After 27 yrs & feeling the same way I know it's a waste of time. I don't wanto go back.