I would say to think about your own happiness right now. But that means you're going to have to work for it. Getting a job or disability, finding your own place, helping your kids through the separation ect. I'd say counseling for you and hubby but you said you've already tried that. It sounds like you have a comfortable life that a lot would kill for but if your not happy then it means nothing. You deserve to be with your best friend and someone that compliments you and that you love back. And actually I just scrolled up and read that you're having an affair. So yea, the marriage is probably over. Just prepare yourself for a lot of work ahead and possibly legal action. Hopefully it will be worth it in the long run. Good luck to you!

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