If you need the case worker and therapist to speak up for you then you need to see them and work with them so the court knows you've been making progress. If you miss your appointments and blow them off, you will continue to have a payee and probably spend some time in a state hospital until you agree to work on the issues you got sent to court for.

It kinda sounds like you've not learned any insight into how you ended up in this court ordered situation. Perhaps that's were you need to start with your therapy. Asking them to help you figure out what exactly happened. Ask for their perception. Why did you in up in the hospital, why did you end up in court.....what can you do differently so it doesn't happen again. Ask what it is you need to change. Walking away and not complying with court orders is not going to get the results you want. I'm sure it's frustrating, if you have to make them spell it out exactly. You need to do this because then you get this reward, and why it is this way.

For instance. You refuse your medications; you hallucinate and deteriorating into not being able to care for yourself. Possibly end up in a hospital Possibly a danger to others and self; You need to see the doc to get medications talk about side effects and find a cocktail that works best for you

You drink to excess on or off your meds; Your health and mind deteriorates, you possibly end up in a hospital. You meet with your case workers and discuse different ways to deal with feelings and positive steps you can take

You feel this is all a waste of time and bogus unrighteousness **** what they are doing to you; you meet with the counselor and talk about it and ask what you need to do differently to get a different outcome...i.e. Getting your money back, your freedom back.

You need to work with them because at this point they hold all the power.