Well,we had another really bad fight and I'm feeling really,really low. He keeps betraying me and treating me awful. His new gf who claims to want to be my friend lied and he lied with her and took her side and it got into a big fight and then he threatened me and was abusive. I did nothing wrong. She then got upset and kept texting me and told him she left her house without her phone(which ended up being a lie) while telling me she was leaving him and will be out of the picture now and he forces us to go to his parents and then leaves to go to her house while she is trying to talk to me and act like she will leave now and is depressed and,she never left her house.By the time he gets to her house he then decides he will stay all night knowing my anxieties and she lies saying he is sleeping when he just texted one minute ago and she is sounding like she has more attitude now. It's a lot of drama. I'm really scared. He has tried making her sound like she is so great and all the while keeps betraying me triggering my anxieties. She literally is manipulating everything. But,he keeps begging her to come back from what i'm noticing from overhearing. He has been making me out to be the crazy person. He shows me no respect or anything and has been abusive lately. He basically is saying I have no choice but to be treated awful or I have no place to live and will suffer at random things he will do to me that he knows will give me anxiety. He's never been like this before.

She acts like she never gets jealous but today revealed another side. She kept asking me if I have feelings for him and saying she will leave because he clearly cares more about me. There's some massive manipulation going on and he is taking her side. It's so scary. I've known him for 12 years and he has made promises to me and has been taking care of me for all this time but yet never managed to help me become independent on my own. Idk what to do. It's so very,very scary. I've never felt like our relationship to each other was so fragile before. I don't understand how of all the girls he's dated,she comes into his life and he ends up treating me so awful. I'm so lost. I've been suffering panic attacks,ptsd,agoraphobia,and ocd and he has made my anxieties worse since he met her because he will compulsively lie and trigger my anxieties with it. I've literally developed heart palpitations and have not been physically well from all this stress and still he is so dark and doesn't care. Idk what to do. I know they won't last much longer. Something going the way him and her have been going is doomed to blow up in flames..always does. I've seen it in my own relationships,too. You can't have a relationship that chaotic that everyone disapproves of and have it last long. I've even had an intuition recently that she is going to be out of the picture soon. It was a strong knowing that she won't be around much longer. Maybe tonight was meant to be them ending. She had texted me saying would it make me happy if she left and to be honest and said she would leave him and be out of the picture. I tried being nice and then he keeps being mean to me and runs off to her,but it almost happened. I was afraid of him losing it if I didn't try and say something nice to her. I could've just been mean or ignored her but I didn't.

I know this is complicated but we had loved each other for so long,made promises to each other,then dated others but still always he was in my life and we live together but lately he's been crazy and it scares me. The biggest thing that hurts is he keeps compulsively lying.It's sick how much he lies. Why do I keep being nice just to be abused and treated awful. I now officially can't stand this girl. My chest literally hurts from the stress right now.