Hello couch. I am super emotional this evening and trying to figure out why. I did spend some time today trying to answer the question "What are you avoiding?" that t asked me on Friday. It all boils down to, I think, it's time for me to sh** or get off the pot, as the saying goes; it's time to take control and responsibility for my own life and quit using therapy as an excuse not to. If I look at myself really really honestly I can see that I do circle back around to issues that really shouldn't still be issues because it gives me a reason to still be there. That sounds really pathetic, I know. But it's easier than manning up and just jumping into the deep end without her as swimmies on my arms. She's helped me learn me how to swim and to swim well; what am I so afraid of, facing my life w/out her in it? I need to have faith in myself. I think I'm going to shower and go to bed early. I'll try to catch up on the couch tomorrow.... night all.