CycloMary, I see a lot of factors here. I see codependency issues, not wanting to be alone and conforming to guarantee security. I see alcoholism which deflates a persons ambition and efforts to null and void. I see worry, I see focusing inward on ones self rather than looking at the outward of the situation. Economically it works for you. He tends to the child, housing. You work and cook. I see basically a role reversal of him being you and you being him. I see that overflowed into all aspects of the union. Put things into perspective and look at it that way. If you love him, which you do, then find a list of things why you like being with him. I know once one person feels something the vibes are picked up by the other partner subconsciously. And if all else fails, prayers works. It calms ones self and helps ones self to accept things and go forward. I hope this helps some. Blessings and tc.