Maybe you could make an appointment for six months from now. If you feel the same in five months and don't want to go then cancel the appointment. That sort of keeps some semblance of connection going. I was thinking you mentioned being married in a previous post but my brain is not in game shape today. I can definitely relate to the situation. I've seen my doc twice since I got Medicare and a doc visit costs me more now than it did before. My two meds keep me from sliding off into the abyss but mostly that's all they do... but I'm glad they do that much at least I take generics but the price of each prescription just keeps going up. Hang in there.