Hi everyone,

This is my first post on here...ever. I've come to this site in hopes of self improvement given a situation that is difficult to me for a reason I can't seem to fathom.

I have to admit that i'm not sure if I have a problem, but I haven't been the most active about solving this problem and recently its been on my mind more.

Background:

Im a male, 20 years old in college. I transferred schools after my freshman year. Im in a long distance relationship with my girlfriend (about two hours) since my freshman year (two years). My relationship with my parents is questionable and often results in fights or negativity about my performance in school and life overall. I suffered from a terrible drug incident (ecstasy) which landed me in the hospital after coming out of a medically induced coma. I have had a history of drug use and have risen above that since then (about 2 years now).

Current situation:

I like to think that i'm a hard worker but recently Ive lost a sense of motivation towards my school work, my passion for fitness, and other projects I would like to work on (computer science related projects). I find it very difficult to pull myself together to study and do work the same way I used to. Quite often I find myself thinking about the isolated nature of my daily life - quite often I go on without talking to people or having real true friendships. I have been somewhat active in trying to develop friends and meet people at my new school, which I have done to some extent, but not to the extent which other people have.

I know its wrong to compare, but in this case I just haven't found many people. I can only say that I have one friend who isn't the people I live with. The people I live with are a story in and of itself with the essence of it being drug fueled craziness. Im trying not to lose hope with making new friends and people who care about me, but the problem I face is that a lot of the time my efforts get me no where. Im quite honestly unsure what to do in face of this situation and to be completely honest, my long distance relationship doesn't help because the one person I want to spend my time with is not physically here or even here over text as much as I would like.

I'm slowly finding myself losing hope in light of this situation as well as I just feel empty a lot of the time. Along side that, I find myself thinking about it even though I try not to and Im lost when it comes to coping with it or dealing with it well. All ive done thus far is to just shake it off and wait until I can sleep to just start a new day.

I honestly need help with this, or whether I should seek the help from a professional.

Any help, thoughts, or ideas are welcome!

Thanks