I've been hesitant to write this post because I was afraid of negative feedback. But I'm a grown woman so I'll take my risks. My bf and I have been together for two yrs. we live together and often taPk about marriage and kids. Well pretty much my bf has a UTI that spread to his bloodstream. It's pretty bad. First when we arrived through ER, his mom met us. Now his mom and I don't see eye to eye and my bf is a major mamas boy. No matter how nice I am, she has something to counteract everything that comes out of my mouth. Even small things like what movie star is doing what. It's ridiculous. So they kept taking him for tests so I would be stuck in the room with her for quite some time. I kept the convo neutral but still got attitude. Let me just add that she has triggered a manic episode in me before. Also, we only have my bf's car right now and it's a stick shift and I can't drive it so I borrowed my dads truck. Well my dad needed his truck back so I had to leave. They also admitted my bf to the hospital at this time. Well I got my dads truck back later on and my bf's mom told me he was asleep so I just went home to get some rest. I texted him and asked if he wanted me to come back and he kept saying no. Well the next morning I woke up to angry texts from him saying how he stayed with me while I was in the hospital and was mad that I "left him alone" after telling me not to come up. So right away I got dressed and went up there. I got there and it was like he was a completely different person. Make note that he is the most laid back, calm, positive person I know. He was yelling about me being unable to work (I had a breakdown last March and have been unable to work). He brought up my meds too and said "I know that seroquel knocks you out for DAYS!!" Well, I corrected him and said that my seroquel lets me sleep a few healthy hrs a night. I really had to try hard to keep my cool at this point. I was shaking and having an anxiety attack right there. I told him this, he laughed a wicked laugh and said "oh please!" He also mentioned how I run to my family or my bipolar friend when we have problems. But I consider these people my support system especially my friend who shares the ugly MI bipolar with me. So right there I understood that he has been going through my phone. So I put a lock on the tapatalk app that I use for this forum and my phone. There was other things said but you get the idea. And perfect timing, before I could defend myself, his mother walks in. I spent the whole time she was here with my head in a book, gritting my teeth and trying not to make my anxiety noticeable. I did run home for literally 2 min to get my meds to prepare to spend the night by his side and took my much needed PRN for anxiety. His mom finally left hours later and I spoke up saying "from what you've said to me I feel like you don't know me at all or understand me and my MI and I can't be with someone like that". He started again saying how he slept in a chair when I was in the hospital and helped me move around ect. I said "read your text msgs! You told me not to come!" Well we both cooled down, I slept here in a chair. It's now the next day and the dr said he will be here for another night. And his mom is coming back. I plan on going home to shower when his mom gets here so I can at least get a break from the both of them. I'm truely still hurt. I tend to dwell on things. And I also tend to end up with the wrong man. I don't know what I expect out of people replys here and I guess I just needed to vent. I can't seem to shake this anxiety from an argument that happened 24 hrs ago. I can't help that I'm very upset right now. I just want understanding from him. I want him to want to know me. I know if someone I loved has a illness, I'd be doing all I can to better understand and be there for them. I thought of this ma as my whole future and best friend. Now, I'm just baffled.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 150mgs
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 600mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN